hot child in the city.

a child's soul

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 07:50:29 GMT

In most countries, Christmas means toys, toys, and more toys. When you’re a kid, you get them (lucky), when you’re an adult, you buy them (circle of life, oh yes).

S and I were scouring the mall for gifts recently and we ended up (naturally) in one of the most successful toy chains in the country, Kidz Station.

I have been told that it's always good to be a kid at heart. I always love going to toy stores because it just gives you this extraordinary sense of happiness that no matter how imperfect things are, you are still okay. And everything will be alright.

Then, I saw this amongst the stack of colorful toys:

(Giant Disney Princess Dolls. Ariel, Jasmine, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty... Oh my Lord!!!)

I SQUEALED WITH DELIGHT!

(Princess Ariel. Check it out, they did a good job with her eyes. Hahaha.)

The Little Mermaid has always been my favorite. Growing up, as a little girl, I had a bunch of stuff all about Ariel and the gang. I had The Little Mermiad lunchboxes, coloring books, story books, T-shirts, accessories, and little knick-knacks. Tita Malou, my aunt in California, knew it was my favorite and she'd send me stuff on a regular basis. Haha. At one point, I memorized ALL the songs in the official soundtrack. When I took voice lessons (FAIL!), I remember, my recital song was supposed to be "Part of Your World". Then I also secretly call Manang (my yaya during that time) Ursula, because, well... she looks like her. It's just too funny.

So yeah, I was so giddy when I saw an Ariel almost as big as I am. What good memories it represented. Those were the days, times when I was worry-free and had no other care in the world...

So, should Ariel (the doll) be part of MY world? Hahaha. Thanks S for giving me an option. HAHA

all i want for christmas is that and this...

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 04:47:42 GMT

I changed my mind. I'm sorry.

Apart from the Colorsplash Flash I've got my eye on this season, SOMEBODY PLEASE GIVE ME THIS!!! Haha.

(The brunette shitzu, not my cousin's arms. HAHA.)

"Awww, cute... What's the name of your dog?"

"Prince."

(The girls trying to help me take a picture of Prince.)

"RJ, boy or girl yung dog?"

"Ahhh, ewan Tzy. I guess boy cuz Prince yung name niya diba?"

"HAHAHAHA. Toink."

"Tzy, so far everyone I know named Prince is a guy. Except si Prince (the singer) because he's gay. But even then, lalake parin siya."

(A brown carpet of unique fur.)

I seriously want a dog. A cute, furry, fluffy one to be more specific. Too bad I'm sorta "forbidden" to have one. But someday, somehow, I will be sufficiently responsible and the ban will be lifted. Haha.

achoooooo!

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 04:10:53 GMT

Yeah, God listened to me and things are definitely better.

Hopefully, when I come home tonight it will be even greater!!! Holding on to hope and positivity! Watch this space for an ounce of good news to end this year with a bang! I can't wait!

Currently nursing the flu. Go away fever! Cough and colds!!! Otherwise, I'll be ngo-ngo when I host the Christmas party tomorrow night. Bio Flu, please activate.

demons.

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 15:04:02 GMT

I am sad today. How's that for being direct to the point? And I don't have the energy left to write a concrete entry. But I have to let them all out, else I'm going to EXPLODE...

Exorcising demons and trying to make sense of things and feelings:

1.) "Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm." I forget where I read it today, but from just about 9 pm I have been on an internal debate whether I agree or not. But I can relate?

2.) I'm selfish? Well, you don't win any "Mother of the Year" awards. Or mother of my lifetime awards, for that matter. Bye. Have a safe trip.

3.) I am ashamed of you. There. I said it.

4.) Everyday I secretly ask God why I got stuck with this dysfunction. Someday, I'll make it my mission to get out of it.

5.) You know what? Thanks. But no thanks.

6.) Back to Plan A. Be filthy rich, then bring myself to law school without any help from you and you, thank you very much!!!

7.) Do I have to say it again? I am not a child. Don't lie to me on the pretext that you know what's best for me. Lying by omission is still lying. AND YOU KNOW IT.

8.) You always pick me last. Someday I'll get tired of it too.

9.) What is better? Loving someone or being loved? Because sometimes you can't have it both ways. Life is cruel that way.

10.) Honestly, I wonder if you're okay. I hope you got over me already. I think that's not too difficult to do. I think you put me in a pedestal, anyway.

11.) People don't keep their word. I know alot of them, unfortunately.

12.) I look at you and I'm afraid of growing old.

13.) It's been said many times, many ways... I HATE MY EFFIN JOB!!!

This honesty and cloak of negativity is for one day only. I hope. I hope tomorrow's going to be a better day. PLEASE GOD.

irony

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 15:10:46 GMT

Something funny I took during my family's annual Christmas party today:

(Our Lady of Manaoag + playing cards = The Irony of all Ironies.)

The White Elephant (exchange gifts) game we play every year involved a deck of cards this time. The one who gets the highest suit has the power to choose. Turns out, Our Lady was one of the gifts... (My mom's first choice, but we got the Sleepcare travel blankie.)

Still waiting for more pictures so I can show the world Santa Ben. HA HA HA HO HO HO!!!

silence.

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 14:53:21 GMT

I don't want your words. I WANT YOUR ACTION.

all i want for christmas is...

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 05:28:50 GMT

To be honest, I am really not into expensive gifts. It sometimes makes me uncomfortable. As long as I want it, it means SOMETHING, or the thought is there then it will always be appreciated - no matter how cheap it is. Simplest of things does make me happy.

My wish list has 10 items, all of which are ordinary trip to the mall finds. I can use them everyday. I'm very practical that way. Out of the 10, it only has two expensive items, a Mac (which I already have) and a Ray-ban white-rimmed aviators (which I don't really need right now, LOL.) So after staring at my aforementioned list, the one thing that I really (REALLY) want this Christmas is.....

(A Colorsplash Flash for my Holga 120N!!!)

The last time I Lomo-ed on was in Daet, Cam Nor during a surfing trip a few months back. Never really had the chance to do that again because I don't have the time to chase the sun and go outdoors and my camera's pretty useless indoors because of the lack of the aforementioned flash. Haha.

(In Daet. Me with my beloved Holga and my friend Mars with her trusty Canon taking a picture of Paul, with his SLR. Paul ended up editing this photo with Lomo-like effects. Love it.)

I can't wait to FINALLY take pics WHEREVER I am. It's going to be fun, and pretty! Haha. My target purchase date is a little before New Years. I hope that lone stock I saw has not yet been sold. I'm thinking it's a perfect way to reward myself after such an "eventful" (OH WHAT A EUPHEMISM) year.

compromise-schcompromise

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 04:57:54 GMT

What I learned today is.... some things never change.

So I say... all bets are off.

mastering the art of saying... now na!!!

Sat, 12 Dec 2009 06:11:08 GMT

My Christmas gift list for family and friends is just about complete.

When I do exert effort (meaning, when I really have the time to do so), I normally tailor fit the gift to what my gift-receiver might be interested in or go through the process of personalizing it.

In one of the training sessions I conducted, I came across a participant whose brother was an artist who does portraits using charcoal and pencil (my current frustration.) It was supposed to be a birthday gift for my mom, but ended up as an idea for a Christmas present.

I asked them to make an artist's rendition of this family picture (taken Christmas 2-3 years ago):

This was the finished product...

(I added the frames, of course.)

(He got my sister's half-smile and dimples down pat.)

(The resemblance to my mother is uncanny... it looks like her around 5 - 10 years ago, which I am betting my next paycheck she will love because she looks "younger".)

(And I....? This version of me looks like Kris Aquino. LOL. Who would've thought? HAHA.)

Never in my wildest dreams did I think that I'd someday look like Kris Aquino - no matter what amount of make-up, or what styling, or what view. But I guess the artist just tried his best to copy our faces, and mine was pretty challenging because I was on side view. Hahaha. I actually had to cut this image a little bit because the original did not look like me - AT ALL. I felt like it was an adopted daughter so I decided I had to do something about it. But I do hope my mom likes it...

And I hope S's family's version would really look like them otherwise it would be so hilarious (and a bit weird) that I'm giving them a family portrait of a family that does not look like them. HAHAHA. I hope not. ;)

back to me

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 09:52:15 GMT

(From I Wrote This For You.)

"You close your eyes when you cry. That's ok. Just don't keep them closed too long. Things have become beautiful since you last looked. There's nothing more to cry about."

Many changes have happened in the last month or so. I actually wake up most days amazed at how completely different everything seems to be. Honestly, I couldn’t be any happier. I’m grateful – beyond words, beyond belief.

Months prior to this, however, many things were said and done. Many things that weren’t particularly very pleasant. It was tough, even to someone who is tough as I often claim to be. And now, even when most things seem as perfect as it could get, sometimes I still find myself remembering without ever meaning to. And each time I do, my heart hitches and I feel it constrict ever so tightly as if to prove that it isn’t broken anymore.

It surprises me, honestly. When there is genuine love, it'll consume you and forgiveness will always be easier than you think. Forgetting, though, is apparently an entirely different matter... But then there’s really no issue here. I am in love. And I am loved in return. But when wounds begin to mend, you feel the most uncomfortable sensation just about the time when it’s completely healing over. The challenge is to avoid touching, picking, or even scratching the scab. Then fresh skin can develop and it's better than new, or a scar manifests and it's stronger than ever.

justice will be served.

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 07:29:04 GMT

(Andal Amapatuan, Jr.)

For your own sake, I hope to your obviously non-existent God that you are NOT guilty.

You sold your soul to the devil for power and it will be massacred over and over for all eternity in the fiery depths of Hades.

Photo from The Associated Press and The Washington Post.

and the winner is...

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 04:54:49 GMT

Can I just say, it feels amazing to blog using my MacBook Pro. I'm still giddy with joy.

I finally made a decision and I know I made the right one, if my contentment can be a judge.

Several reasons why I went with the Pro:

It's aluminum and I tend to get OC with my gadgetries. Polycarbonate unibody plus OC-ness is never a good combination, no. Besides, I agree with S's conclusion: with the 10K price difference, you really are paying for the casing for the most part and 10K is worth it because, well, it's... ALUMINUM.
My sister keeps on convincing me to get it instead of the Macbook 2009 and this time (because they trained her to understand Apple products, big DUR), she knows better. She had that approving tone when I told her what I decided. Hahaha.
It's what I really wanted, but was getting the white one because I was being practical. I know deep down I'd kick myself if I got the MacBook. Or maybe not, because it'll also be love at first gadget-sight, but you know what I mean. Besides, my new goal is to exhaust all means to pay for this new luxury SOON.
My officemate JR swayed me with his Vios and Altis analogy, honestly. Top of the line Vios versus entry-level (but higher model) Altis. He went with the Altis, enough said.

And finally...

It's a PRO. Do I really need to say anything else?

If you are also deciding between buying the late-2009 Macbook or the early-2009 Macbook Pro, you might want to read this from The Apple Blog.

And of course, some words of wisdom from the world wide web, via Engadget:

"f you're desperate for a new Mac and you've only got a grand, it'll do you fine, and the unibody upgrade and nicer screen are certainly welcome -- plastic laptops simply don't come any more solidly built than this. If it were up to us, however, we'd stay home on Saturday nights until we'd stashed enough coin for the $1,199 13-inch MacBook Pro -- not only for the added SD card slot and FireWire port, but also for the brighter, better display and aluminum case that doesn't scratch, dent, and discolor at the slightest provocation. There's just no reason to skimp and get the MacBook if you can manage to get the Pro."

(My MBP in a shopping bag. LOL.)

I got my Pro from The A. Shop (Apple Premium Reseller). And although my sister works there and she got me a sweet deal (and a little discount), I still did some research because that's what I do. Bottom line is, the prices are lower as compared to other full-service Apple stores. For example, the MacBook Pro in store P (as of November 9, 2009) is around 71,990 pesos, while in The A. Shop it just retails for around 67,000 pesos. Or another example is the new MacBook which retails for 58,990 pesos in store P, but only around 54,500 in The A. Shop. It has branches in Podium and Eastwood Mall in case someone might be interested. Also Zamora owned, check out Chuvaness' post when it opened last year.

my induction to the cult of mac

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 03:59:19 GMT

This entry is powered by a Mac OS X Snow Leopard.

YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS.

Lesser words, more pictures. I was like a kid on Christmas morning, I made sure I documented everything from beginning to end. I feel like such a dork. An excited dork!

World, say hello to my MacBook Pro:

(Suspense! Haha.)

(This is it.)

(Pandora's Box. Yeah baby.)

(Voila!)

(Close up.)

(It feels so familiar. It reminds me of my iPod. A big iPod. This is a stupid thing to say. Haha.)

(Sexy back.)

(Oh my Lord!!!)

(Everything Mac.)

(I am now a PRO!!!)

2009 just gets better and better!!! Love and happiness!

21st century saying

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 17:33:54 GMT

Remember M, you aren't somebody until you've been talked about.

Xoxo,
Gossip Girl

eat... pray, love!

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 16:54:05 GMT

I've always been familiar with the Pasong Tamo area because as I teenager, I used to spend my weekends there attending youth group (Saturdays) and weekly church service with my family (Sundays).

I know Makati Cinema Square is there, infamous for being one of Manila's piracy haven; and of course, Plaza Fair where everything is cheap and fairly-priced. Not checked the quality though, in the last decade. LOL. I'm actually afraid!

I was even supposed to move in to a building in this street this year, but little did I know that it also houses this piece of Japanese food heaven - Little Tokyo!

(Photo courtesy of Senor Enrique, check out his blog!)

Little Tokyo is this hidden little space with different authentic Japanese restaurants, each serving their own specialties and a Japanese grocery to boot!

My friends and I tried out Nodasho, and the food was delicious! Starting with the complimentary Potato Salad with mustard and wasabi, everything I tried, I loved. I would especially love to rave about this:

The Puri Puri Salad is made of cucumber, lettuce, cabbage, and a generous slice of kani, wrapped in rice paper. As you can see, it is dipped in Goma-tare sauce made of sesame seed. The sauce is LOVE! It's what defines this healthy dish. Coincidentally, my friend Carlo discovered it's actually for sale in the grocery for 70 pesos per bottle. TRY IT!

This salad reminded me of my favorite Vietnamese dish in Pho Hoa, the Cha Gio Vet, or the Fried Rice Paper Roll with Pork with Vermicelli Vinegar. It's only an appetizer but I eat it for lunch - by myself! Haha.

(This Vietnamese Spring Roll is in my Top 10 faves. Crave for it like clock work!)

I have always been adventurous with food. I don't knock it until I've tried it. Food and flavor is the ultimate discovery. I have always maintained that Asian food is the best because it's always unique and distinct!

In a related thought, I have yet to try Malaysian cuisine... 'Bout time I consider trying the Malaysian dishes I saw in the Salcedo Market. Can't wait!

love in a photobooth

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 14:50:31 GMT

Yes, I gave in. Through my benefactor’s assistance (can you believe, my sister?), I am getting a Mac. One major thing ticked off my wishlist! Woo-zah!

My trusty Compaq – the first major purchase I made when I started working – conked out on me. (May you rest in peace.) Thus, I had no choice but to replace it.

I was supposed to get this:

Netbooks were the IN thing for 2009 technology. And HP is a good brand. Oh, and for less than 25 grand a pop, IT's CHEAP TOO.

But with the growing number of Mac-user friends I have, it was inevitable that I became a convert and worship at the feet of Steve Jacobs, all hail!

Forces that be dictated that my Mac not be with me yet, so over the weekend, I have to make a decision. Should I get…

1) The 2009-released NEW Macbook (Php 54,000 or so)

2) The 2009-released 13" Macbook Pro (Php 65,000 or so)

I realize the new Macbook has better specs than the 13-inch Pro, so the difference is only the sturdy Aluminum casing and the white polycarbonate prone to scratches. My sister is adamant that I get the Pro.

She gave me a compromise, I could also buy this:

3) July 2008-released Macbook Aluminum (now only Php 50,000)

For a review of Macbook Aluminim and the Macbook Pro, which practically looks the same, check this out!

Tough choice. Opinions welcome.

I have until tomorrow! UGH. Help!!!

wrap attack

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 13:45:23 GMT

December 2009 is proving to be more hectic than usual. What with the changes, work bedlam(!!!), my mom’s trip on the 15th, coordinating getting my new mac, and applying my way into law school on my off days…

But amidst all that chaos, I am still excited as ever about my most loved season, specially when I never even realized that I’d still be this happy in a year that has been – for the most part – very challenging. In between deadlines and responsibilities, I have managed to squeeze in completing my gift list and my most favorite task during the holidays – wrapping gifts!

I’ve been spending this weekend sorting items and wrapping them one by one. Visited Wrap Shop in Rockwell yesterday and I got so fascinated with the specialty gift wrappers and pretty ribbons, I spent an hour in the store and walked away with 700 pesos worth of purchases. Not too pricey, until you realize it’s only good for 5 or so gifts. Oh so worth it. Haha.

(Interesting, click HERE for Wrap Shop's story.)

Ribbons range from 5 to 75 pesos per yard (depending on beauty, very attractive.) Meanwhile wrapping papers cost 38 to 80 pesos per sheet (depending on shimmer, I love it!)

I dream of owning my own business someday and I envision that if it’s not related to food (common but failsafe), it’s got something to do with laundry (unglamorous but profitable based on experience), or specialty services like gift-wrapping (seasonal but creative). Only time will tell. For now, I stay happy and stress-free neatly wrapping packages and making bows and ribbons so that once a year, I get to tell people that I love that I’m thankful I have them in my life. It’s very therapeutic.

Here’s what I’ve been working on:

(Trademark Wrap Shop paper, with dark blue and light mint ribbons.)

(Layers of light blue Japanese paper, with multi-colored – and expensive – ribbons.)

(Layers of royal blue Japanese paper, with silver printed ribbons. Always difficult to wrap objects with irregular shapes.)

Gifts still be to wrapped with:

(Doesn’t it scream HAPPY? Lol.)

(I have a thing for using black ribbons for gifts. Classic vibe. Last year, I used black with glittering red over muted plain red as the wrapper. Loved it.)

I shall reuse left-over wrappers from last year, too:

It’s all so fun. I'll even volunteer to help you with your gift-wrapping once I’m done with mine, which should be soon.

And of course... Merry Christmas everyone!

onesies

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 13:17:39 GMT

First attempt to buy baby clothes ever. For S’s adorable little nephew Cedi…

(Sorry, couldn't resist posting this! *wink*)

Tried going to department stores and all infant/kiddie boutiques in Rockwell and Greenbelt 5, nothing really screamed "I’m a cute baby" enough. LOL.

Discovered Googoo and Gaga through Chuvaness, but since most items are sold out, I did what I do best and tried researching online. It’s fascinating how online specialty businesses are mushrooming. And the items are generally good. I’d even wear the kiddie clothes if I could. Scouring multiply, I discovered Tiny Tots, makers of cool statement onesies (or “rompers”, in some circles). I trekked to the Gift Lab bazaar in Rockwell where they had a stall and got hold of these:

(Yeah, literally screaming “super cute”. Haha.)

(Shameless sucking up on my part. Hilarious!)

(Bond. Baby Bond, how cool is this little tux?)

I got a 40 pesos discount on each item without asking for it! YEY me. If you want to shop online, check out Tiny Tots’s multiply for more designs!

anticipation

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 12:48:08 GMT

I’ve made a draft and I can’t wait to hand it in. Oh yes.

second chances

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 18:27:51 GMT

"We passed the test. We passed the test with flying colors..."

I have always believed in the beauty of second chances. Love will always be a risk. And after everything has been said and done - whether you lose in the end or not - it is always a risk worth taking.

I won't think about anything else... save for the fact that I am happy, more than I've ever been.

You make me very happy. <3

sunday, bloody, sunday

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 13:14:39 GMT

trau-ma (trô′mə, trä′-)
n. pl. trau-mas or trau-ma-ta

1. A serious injury or shock to the body, as from violence or an accident.
2. An emotional wound or shock that creates substantial, lasting damage to the psychological development of a person, often leading to neurosis.
3. An event or situation that causes great distress and disruption.

One step forward, two steps back... Dancing with fear, to the beat of destiny's drum.

I am unmistakably afraid, more than I really care to admit. For me, for you, for everyone else involved.... It doesn't really matter who because one way or another, someone's bound to get hurt. And I've been through that. And I know it won't be easy for anyone. I have no idea if I have recovered enough to trust myself to be strong enough to deal with whatever is coming, or whatever I have to face.

I wish I can stop thinking, stop planning, stop second guessing... JUST STOP. Shut it all out and for once, just. let. go....

glibberish

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 16:51:09 GMT

The Proust Questionnaire

The Proust Questionnaire has its origins in a parlor game popularized (though not devised) by Marcel Proust, the French essayist and novelist, who believed that, in answering these questions, an individual reveals his or her true nature. Here is the basic Proust Questionnaire.

1.What is your idea of perfect happiness?
When everything else is imperfect but you just know. You know you will be okay and you're joyful, grateful, and at peace... despite anything.

2.What is your greatest fear?
Worthlessness. When life has no purpose, how does one find meaning? Why should one even live?

3.What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
Honesty.

4.What is the trait you most deplore in others?
Incompetence. Ugh. Please. Stupidity kills.

5.Which living person do you most admire?
I'll let you know when I meet that person in heaven.

6.What is your greatest extravagance?
Sleep, honestly. I dreamt I ate a marshmallow, then when I woke up, my pillow was gone.

7.What is your current state of mind?
"Ladies and gentlemen, the Captain has turned on the fasten seat belt sign. We are now crossing a zone of turbulence. Please return to your seats and keep your seat belts fastened. Thank you."

8.What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
Idealism. Wake up. Nothing is perfect in the real world. Even one's idealism can be flawed.

9.On what occasion do you lie?
When I can get away with it, and that's never often.
Liar, liar. Panties on fire.

10.What do you most dislike about your appearance?
It's... common. Le sigh.

11.Which living person do you most despise?
I tell you this: Indifference is far worse than hate.

12.What is the quality you most like in a man?
Chivalry. Commitment. Courage. Ambition.
Full time position available. Attractive compensation package. Rigorous screening process. Applicants are welcome to apply. Will be notified through facebook if shortlisted. Haha.

13.What is the quality you most like in a woman?
Wisdom and quiet grace.

14.Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
"Yeah, yeah, yeah..."
"Though..."
"Weird."
"Nevermind..."
"Nothing."

My, my. I'm ever so eloquent. A one-word talking machine.

15.What or who is the greatest love of your life?
Music, you are love.

16.When and where were you happiest?
The lights dim. I close my eyes and wait... The first beat. Then the music swells and reverberates, everything in my being comes alive and I feel like my heart can't contain it anymore and any minute, it can explode.

17.Which talent would you most like to have?
Charisma? That count?

18.If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
Sensitivity.

19.What do you consider your greatest achievement?
Independence.

20.If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be?
A tree, standing high and proud, witness to all that life can offer. God knows the earth can never have enough trees.

21.Where would you most like to live?
In your heart?

22.What is your most treasured possession?
The 'Pod. Music heals, music shapes, it makes something great even better.

23.What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
Suicide.

24.What is your favorite occupation?
Defender of the oppressed and the downtrodden. Seriously. I'm a superhero girl, don't tell anyone. I wear leotards under my dresses.

25.What is your most marked characteristic?
Wit? At least I hope. Passion? My greatest downfall.

26.What do you most value in your friends?
Dependability.

27.Who are your favorite writers?
You're high if you think it's an easy choice to make.

28.Who is your hero of fiction?
Daria, the queen of sarcasm. An idiot can never be sardonic, go figure.

29.Which historical figure do you most identify with?
Amelia Earhart, because she was never really lost...

30.Who are your heroes in real life?
To the staff of Kuff and Kollar Valero Branch, you are much appreciated. Life is so much easier and meaningful with your laundry services around.

31.What are your favorite names?
Radiohead. Jeff Buckley. Thursday. Names that make this world a better place to live in.

32.What is it that you most dislike?
Sexuality versus music. Take all your clothes off, gyrate and sell your soul to the devil, but hideous music will still be, well just that... hideous.

33.What is your greatest regret?
None that deserves the "greatest" tag attached to it. Thank heavens.

34.How would you like to die?
Peacefully.

35.What is your motto?
Everything happens the way its supposed to. Even if you can't understand, even if it doesn't make sense. The universe will always be right on schedule. And it always works out for the best in the long run, all you need is trust.

welcome to my next vacation

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 14:08:50 GMT

I'd die happy if I get the chance to go and see this beauty in my lifetime:

Oia, Santorini, Greece

I'm in a trance and I'm just looking at photographs. Seems like an ideal place for me. Idyllic and quaint, it's peaceful, but every corner exudes character. It's my ultimate vacation, and I'd get here someday.

Bellarocca Resort and Spa, Marinduque, Philippines

In the meantime, I'll continue to discover the wonders of my own country. Turns out my dream island's closer to home than I thought. A mini-Santorini right in our own shores! 2010's going to be different. It's going to be a positively exciting year!

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Photo 2: http://rds.yahoo.com/_ylt=A0S0201I0NlK1k0BwgmjzbkF/SIG=1289gc1m3/EXP=1255875016/**http%3A//www.flickr.com/photos/yannislarios/807036239/

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Photo 4-6: http://bellaroccaresorts.com/?file=kop1.php

multiple choice

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 13:11:43 GMT

Two years of out college, which statement best characterizes you?

a.) I am unhappy with my job.
b.) I am currently looking for a new job.
c.) I am unemployed.
d.) I have just resigned, transfering to a new job.

I had dinner with a bunch of Ateneo friends and ALL of us fall in one category or several... Ladies and gents, quarter life crisis at it's finest. We are getting older.

But honestly, it was comforting in a way. I realized that it wasn't a lonely road after all. And although I feel really lost, I know I'll find my way soon enough. I'll get there. Eventually, I'll be okay. We will all be okay. And everything will work for the best in the long run...

In the meantime, I pray, I hope, and I trust. It's in His hands.

melancholy and the infinite sadness...

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 12:53:39 GMT

2009 has been really heartbreaking, a year of many goodbyes...
I don't really know how much more of it I can take.

Our front porch (passive) smoking sessions, hidden in the deep shadows of the evening, have always been some sort of refuge.

Crying and pathetic in the departure hall, I find that I don't even have the words to express anything else today, except to say that I know I'm not okay.